It's really not easy trying to have a full time, none art related job and trying to express yourself in artwork and establish yourself as an artist.
There, I've said it, the cat's out the bag!
So much of life is choices and decisions. Take me, I'm in my forties, married with a seven year old angel and a cat. I have a, dare I say it, very good job which I'm good at and I'm in a first-manager position. It pays well, has good holidays and flexible hours. But it's not art, it's not creative. It's by no means your average job and I'm extremely proud of the work that I do.
Thing is, 13 years ago when I started the job I had to put the artwork on hold, to concentrate on a five(ish) year training programme. In the last few years I've tried to restart the art and I've had some success. I can, with all honesty, say that I am now an international selling artist!
But I can't neglect my family or my sanity! I'm a stress head, I grind my teeth a lot, I overthink and over analyse everything. I mean, everything! It's exhausting being me.
So where do I go from here?
I have the support of an amazing wife and the love of a very special daughter (Of course I'm biased). I mean, taking the question literally: Tomorrow I'm starting work as head of training in my day job and setting up a new team, as the current head is acting up in a more senior position. Also, this week I really want to complete my painting of Hogwarts, which thankfully has a very patient buyer waiting. I've also started picking up a guitar again, after a ten(ish) year absence.
I'm still looking for an outlet for my work and hoping to get some commissions this year.
Anyway, this post doesn't solve anything, I just fancied getting it down in writing.
I'm off to learn the notes on a fret board...